"Full time Fiona"

[fionatbabe]

Hi guys, (just a figure of speech for the insecure amongst us)...just letting you know that I go full time on the 10/11/08 as I've secured a social work team manager post at the Thornton Clevelys office. Ive sorta already started as Ive attended my first managers meeting. Its very exciting yet fraught with much trepidation.
Ive come such a long way since my first visit to Ren, however for me this is not a moment of celebration more of reflection as it has cost me the things that I hold most precious, namely my wife and children.
For those who dont understand it is not a choice I have made it was predetermined from childhood and now Ive faced my demons I am more relaxed and at peace with who I am.
...The price for being who you are?... well, whether your loved ones are accepting or not, to transition is to make the biggest sacrifice of all and that is to be prepared to lose those who you love the most.
There's a new life awaiting me now, however, the quest for inner peace and acceptance comes at the highest price.
I love my wife (ex wife) and maybe she will come around one day but again its about preparing your self and willing to accept the worse case scenario.
So anyone who is thinking of transitioning, be prepared to make pain, suffering, hardship, rejection and frustration among your closest friends.
...would I change anything...the answer is still a resounding no. I have to align the person I am inside with the person I am outside.So many years of fighting have only served to hurt those I love so dearly and myself of course. Its time to stop fighting now, stop faking, time to face the world alone and see what my destiny brings
Fiona

[Haylee]

Wonderfully written piece Fiona. Hope all goes well.

Haylee

[jackiejones]

Your a brave Girl Fiona,and i wish you the very best of luck.

[reggie]

All I can say is, I wish you all the best of luck, and all my love, as it is a major and final decision, especially when you are younger and have all those that you hold dear. I was lucky, in that I only had my daughters who are now in their 40's and so understand.

Once again good luck and best wishes

Love XX

[Lynda Collins]

Fiona ...
this is a very down to earth and well thought out post. You have changed so much in the last year, you are thinking clearly and working through this very well.

Sending you all my best wishes for your future and if you ever need to talk I will be here.......

Take care and hope to see you soon

[debs_n_soots]

Hi Fiona,

Pleased to hear your news and wish you well for the future. :)

As you say, not easy and not something to be done lightly - I do hope things improve for you re your familly. At least now you can feel happier within yourself, even if that isn't necessarily the same as being actually happy. But who knows what life may bring?

Take care

Debbie x

[kim swanheart]

Good luck, I'm sure you will find it a rewarding and liberating eperience, much love and best wishes Kim

[Becky Richards]

I can't begin to imagine the courage that it must take to follow your destiny. I'm sure that you would say that you have no choice; it's how you should always have been. Either way, I admire your courage and conviction. Very best wishes for what lies ahead.

Becky
x





Hi guys, (just a figure of speech for the insecure amongst us)...just letting you know that I go full time on the 10/11/08 as I've secured a social work team manager post at the Thornton Clevelys office. Ive sorta already started as Ive attended my first managers meeting. Its very exciting yet fraught with much trepidation.
Ive come such a long way since my first visit to Ren, however for me this is not a moment of celebration more of reflection as it has cost me the things that I hold most precious, namely my wife and children.
For those who dont understand it is not a choice I have made it was predetermined from childhood and now Ive faced my demons I am more relaxed and at peace with who I am.
...The price for being who you are?... well, whether your loved ones are excepting or not, to transition is to make the biggest sacrifice of all and that is to be prepared to lose those who you love the most.
There's a new life awaiting me now, however, the quest for inner peace and acceptance comes at the highest price.
I love my wife (ex wife) and maybe she will come around one day but again its about preparing your self and willing to accept the worse case scenario.
So anyone who is thinking of transitioning, be prepared to make pain, suffering, hardship, rejection and frustration among your closest friends.
...would I change anything...the answer is still a resounding no. I have to align the person I am inside with the person I am outside.So many years of fighting have only served to hurt those I love so dearly and myself of course. Its time to stop fighting now, stop faking, time to face the world alone and see what my destiny brings
Fiona

[Sara Rae]

Hi Fiona, Having watched you grow & face Life. Changing decisions you have courage and conviction by the buckef full, self doubt has been your worst enemy but you have it on the run, relax make new freinds in your new job and enjoy what you are doing.
Hugs
Sara Rae

[fionatbabe]

How lovely, mutal support is so important in our complicated lives...thank you so much.
xx